Celebrities

So I was just watching Oprah a few minutes ago and I literally could not watch it anymore with out wanting to punch the television screen. She had Jane Fonda as a guest today and I've never gotten so angry at a person within a matter of minutes. Jane was sitting on Oprah's couch saying how much better her life is since she's turned 60 and that she finally feels whole in her body. I'm sitting there thinking to myself well I would probably have a lot of time to become whole with myself and love myself if I had millions of dollars and not have to worry about how I'm going to get through school or what I'm going to do with my life or even if I will be okay in the future. I would have plenty of time to find inner peace and be happy with my body if I got paid for memorizing some lines. I'm sorry for the rant but I'm so sick and tired of these celebrities going on talk shows saying how amazing they feel with their bodies and how comfortable in them selves they feel.

And since we're on the topic of body images, I grew up watching these women in movies and on tv. I mean these women are who I looked up to and who I wanted to be. These women that are now bitching and complaining about how girls and women today are too harsh on their bodies. These women are the reason that girls my age have the issues with their bodies that we do. I used to love watching Marilyn Monroe movies because she actually looked like me and men loved her. But the movies, rather the actresses in those movies, made me think that I had to be super skinny to be loved. Now these same women are complaining about the environment that they helped to create.

Again I appologize for the rant. I'm just so tired with these celebrities telling me how I'm supposed to behave. Like because I'm in my 20's I can't possibly know what happiness is because I'm not whole yet. I have a wonderful family who supports me every step of the way, a boyfriend who adores me and who I adore, and I'm at a job that I love and I'm about to start school for it. If that is not whole, if my life is not enough for me to be happy then I really don't know what else I'm missing...

I'm in a hurry to get things done...

I'm in such a big hurry to move time along. I'm almost over Halloween. I can't wait until October is over. So I have a costume that I wore last weekend to a work party and is it bad that I really don't want to wear it again. I just wanna get some cheap Halloween shirts and wear it with some jeans. I'm just over dressing up lol.

This fall break has went by way too fast. It feels like just yesterday it was the beginning of fall break. Now I have to go back to school tomorrow, and I'm not looking forward to it. I wish I could say that I did something awesome during this fall break but I didn't. I worked almost 40 hours at work last week and went to a Halloween party but that is about it. I'm so lame sometimes lol

Time goes so fast sometimes. When I found out fall break was this week I was so excited, I got to sleep in and hang out with friends and just relax a little bit.. but no I had to pick up extra hours at work lol. It was my choice to do it, I wanted to pick the hours up so that I can have a little bit of extra cash, but I've had the worse week at work. I wish I hadn't picked up the hours. I'm so drained right now and I cannot wait for Thanksgiving to get here lol

When will my OCD kick in??

I'm sitting here in my complete pig sty of a room. I have no desire to clean it. It makes me want to just throw everything out on my floor. I despise cleaning, we're like mortal enemies and I can't stand to even think about cleaning. I wish there was a way I could just wrinkle my nose or wave a hand and everything would be folded and put in the right place. When it comes to everything else I'm like a clean freak but my stupid room I can not stand to clean it.

When I was younger my dad used to threaten me when I didn't clean my room. He would threaten that everything would be thrown on the floor and he would come up to my room with a rake and just rake everything into a giant pile. He only did it to me one time but that was enough to last me through high school. I kept it pretty clean up until the point that work and school came into play. I have no energy to even think about cleaning. Blah....

Halloween

Oh my gosh, since when did it become acceptable to dress like a complete slut on Halloween. I'm looking for a costume, sort of scoping them out online before I go searching for one, and I'm seeing a trend in all of these costumes. Hemlines are seeming to become nonexistent with these costumes. I mean its not like Halloween is in the middle of July and you want to wear shorts, how sexy is it to wear a costume that is so skimpy you have to cover up with sweatshirts and jeans underneath of it. It is at the end of October, when its already starting to get cold and night time temps are in the 50's.

I'm going to a few Halloween parties this year and I do want to feel kinda sexy but seriously you can't go around in a skirt that doesn't even cover your butt, with a tank top on. Sorry about the rant but it is just irritating me.

Hug It, Chug It, FOOTBALL!!!

I went to the Bengals game today. I was really not impressed with what I saw. First let me just point out that I'm not a football fan what so ever. I've been around it all my life, both of my brothers played up until the time they were in high school. My dad is a huge football fan and every time him and my brothers get together that is all they talk about. But me I cannot understand the game, I've tried for years to understand the basic fundamentals of the game but it just doesn't click in my head.

So back to my story, I went to the Bengals game today and even though I do not understand football I tried to get into the game. I didn't have a good time today, I mean for starters the Bengals completely screwed up in the last freaking two minutes of the game. And second I didn't understand how they were screwing up, I mean I could tell they were obviously screwing up by the uproar of booing I heard from the crowd but I had no idea what was actually going on.

And on top of the stupid Bengals sucking, today was incredibly hot out. It was like 85 degrees outside. I mean call me crazy but I wanted it to be like the weather we've been having like 60-75 degrees outside, where I can curl into my hoodie and drink a little and be comfortable. The last time I went to a Bengals game it was hot like that and I almost passed out I was so over heated.

I really don't think I'll ever go to another Bengals game. Its not like I hate the Bengals or anything, I just am not a fan of football and I don't want to put myself through that freaking torture ever again, I don't understand the game I don't want to sit through another four hours of my life and I don't want to sit through and pretend like I'm having a good time and all I'm thinking about is going home and reading a book.

getting things together

I know that this blog was started as an assignment for my Strategic Concepts class but I really like the fact that I continue it. I really think that I'll continue this blog even after class ends in December. I like the fact that I can put what I'm feeling or how I am reacting out into the world.

I'll Have a Blue Christmas, without you....

So I was in the middle of another blogger's post when I got inspired to talk a little about my holiday traditions. In my family we only have a few traditions. The biggest holiday tradition we have is Thanksgiving. Usually the party is at my parents house, and it has been as far back as I can remember, and it normally lasts for 2 days. It starts of course on Thanksgiving and continues on to the day after. My aunts are huge Black Friday shoppers and will usually stay at our house until around 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. This is because our house is so close to the shopping centers that they can leave straight from our house and head to the malls lol. And we don't usually see them until around noon the next day. They all come in from shopping and eat the enormous amount of food we still have left and then pass out on our comfy couches until its time to leave lol... Black Friday is usually more of the party day for my family, we normally sit around the dining room playing euchre and drinking wine/beer what ever is around lol.

Then there is Christmas in my family.. For my immediate family we usually celebrate the night before Christmas. We have a huge meal in the dining room with the fancy china lol, and then afterwards we open up presents. It is my favorite holiday because of the family dinner. My family is on such crazy schedules these days that a family dinner at a reasonable time is almost always out of the question. This is year is going to be terrible, my younger brother has moved to Tennessee with his girlfriend and won't be able to make it home for Christmas this year because he is coming home for Thanksgiving.

As much as it saddens me to know that he won't be home for Christmas, he is coming home for 10 days in November for Thanksgiving. So I've came up with a little idea. Instead of him missing out on our Christmas Eve plans, we'll have a mock Christmas for him and his girlfriend when he comes home. I don't think its too unreasonable to ask that we move Christmas up for them at least. I was thinking about having presents for them and then a big dinner on the fancy china lol.

I do miss my little brother. He has been down there since March. We visited them this past July on our way to Florida. It was so nice to see him. I'm only three years older than him. Growing up we weren't that close, hell I wouldn't even say we were nice to each other lol. But in the past 3 years or so we've gotten really close. It sucked so bad when he moved. I've missed him so much, I mean I used to take for granted the stupid talks we'd have sitting in the living room, or the late nights hanging out or running around together. He was always my go to guy. When I didn't have anything to do, which was often since I'm broke, he was there. We would leave the house around midnight and drive around just bs-ing. It will be hard come Christmas when he's not around but I know that he's making a life for himself, which makes me feel incredibly proud of him.

Long time no post lol

Has anyone in this blogging universe seen the movie Empire Records? It is so amazing, like 90's teenage movie drama at its best! I'm not really sure what I could possibly write about because I'm too busy watching one of the best teenage movies of all time lol.

I have all kinds of different thoughts in my head about what to write about but something that is sticking out in my head by The Band Perry, its called "If I Die Young" I know it sounds a little morbid but its such an amazing song.. I love the chorus,
"If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a, bed of roses.
Sink me in the river, at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song."
Its an amazing song..

There are so many things going through my head right now but I really can't organize anything into a post lol. I'm going to bed lol