ITS SOOOO FLLLLLUUUUUUUUUUFFFFFFFFFYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

Ok, so my title for this blog has absolutely nothing to do with what I'm going to write about lol.. I'm not sure what is up with me tonight. Last night I felt like I had been run over by a mac truck. I thought I was coming down with the flu because my body ached all over, I was running a fever, I was coughing nasty junk up and my nose was literally running off my face lol. Tonight however I'm not sure what happened. It was like I got knocked in the head with an energy bat. I can't sit still, I've cleaned my room, done my laundry, read in my book, downloaded a bunch of really cool apps on my phone and now I'm getting one of my blogs done for the week lol. I wish I had this kind of energy all of the time because it is awesome. I feel like this whole year has been moving in slow motion for me. I never have energy, I'm always tired, and I just can't get motivated to do anything! But oh no not tonight thank god lol... I love this feeling of having energy I just wanna like go work out or something I feel so good lol... and if you are unsure where my title came from its from the movie Despicable Me lol

Bubbafest!!!

This weekend was so freaking amazing. It started out really slow, Friday I didn't really do anything. Saturday I went to this training class for work that was supposed to be 6 hours, from like 9-3, but it only ended up being 3 hours. And did I mention she still gave us credit for the 6 hours, AMAZING lol. Then I went to a coworker's baby shower, which wasn't exactly super exciting. We're not super close but I went with some girls from work and we had a good time. Then came the amazing part of my weekend. I got to go to BUBBAFEST!!!!!!

For those of you that aren't familiar with Bubbafest, its held on like 300 acres of private property and its just a gigantic all weekend long trailriding event. People come from all over Kentucky Ohio and Indiana just to trail ride on this piece of land. The guy who holds it has conscession stands and a dj and events with different obstacles. The most popular event is the mud bog. It is crazy, I've been going for the past 5 years and I've literally never seen this ravine dried up. It is just thick nasty mud. The goal of this task is to get your trail rider from one end of the ravine to the other and get it out without breaking anything or getting stuck. It sounds so simple but if you've ever seen it or actually been a part of it, its anything but simple.

I was so excited to go this year, I didn't think me and my boyfriend were going to be able to. But when he got tickets I almost screamed I was so excited. I may not look like it in class but I love to get muddy and dirty and beat the crap out of trail riders. The muddier the better. There was a downside to last night though. As we were standing around in the garage watching everyone fix things, the paramedics were called. Apparently a girl was riding on a quad without a helmet and fell off. She wasn't hurt badly but she did have a cut on her forehead.

Some time passed and we were still waiting for everyone to get their stuff ready to go and the paramedics came by again. Someone else had gotten hurt. From what I heard, a guy a flipped on a hill with his girlfriend in the passenger seat and she was unconcsious. When she woke up she was bleeding from the head so they called the paramedics.

I know it sucks for both of those girls but when you go to something like this you HAVE to be safe. You HAVE to wear your helmet and safety harnesses and seatbelts and whatever else you have to keep yourself safe. Its only fun if you live through it. No one is going to think your stupid for wanting to stay alive.

Well anyways besides those incidents I had a blast. The jeep my boyfriend just got wasn't exactly ready for the trails yet. It has a really bad spot on the frame in the back so we didn't go down in the woods very much and in the creek. However we did get to cruise around on the main trails and hang out around the big bonfire and have real good time with all of our friends that we haven't seen in forever! I wish Bubbafest was every weekend!!!!!!

nothing important

I wish I had more interesting things to discuss than my weekend. But sadly I haven't anything exciting to discuss.

So this weekend I'm going to a training class for the daycare I work at. Its from 930 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon. The last training class I went to was supposed to last until 3 also but we got out at 1. Hopefully tomorrow will be the same way. I originally signed up for this class because I thought they were going to be working on art projects for December, I was sadly mistaken however. This workshop was for early childhood literacy and gross motor activities and music. I was super bummed out when I found out that I signed up for the wrong class. So if anyone has any really cool ideas for activities and crafts for December and winter that a two year old can do please just post something on here for me!

Anyways, I'm also going to a babyshower for one of my coworkers tomorrow afternoon. I knew I was going to get her a giftcard but when I went to pick one out I couldn't make a decision on which store, Babies "r" us or Target. I mean sure Babies "R" Us is strictly for babies, however they are EXTREMELY overpriced. Target on the other hand is reasonably priced and have a really good selection of baby items. So I finally decided on Target. I mean even if she has everything for her baby right now, she'll need clothes and baby wipes and diapers and formula. All kinds of things you don't necessarily get when you have a baby shower. I think I made the right choice lol.

Well that is all for tonight, maybe I'll write back tomorrow and let you all know how the class and babyshower goes, goodnight......

Babysitting!

So I was babysitting one of my kids from daycare last night, it was interesting to say the least. I was so surprised at how this little girl was at home versus being at daycare.

When she is at daycare she is so full of energy and bouncing off the walls. When I got to her house she was sitting in her underwear watching tv with a juice box lol. I had plans to take her out like go shopping or get some junk food or take her to a playground or something but as it turns out my car battery died right before I left my house. So we were forced to stay in last night. We literally watched like 4 disney movies and the only time she moved from the couch was to go to the bathroom. When I volunteered to watch her I was not expecting a teeny tiny couch potato.

To get her off the couch we went outsid for about a half an hour while it was still light outside. We were playing with hula hoops and I was chasing her around.

It was just so crazy how the minute we were away from the tv that she was the same little girl that I see every day at work but as soon as we got in front of a tv she was like a mini zombie lol. It was just a very interesting night.

haven't been blogging in quite some time...

I haven't been blogging lately. I'm not sure why I just haven't had anything blog-worthy to write I guess. I haven't really been busy with work or anything and school is going okay I guess.

I'm babysitting tonight for one of the little girls in my class. I'm super excited to see how she acts at home versus at the daycare. She is this little tiny girl and she is one of my favorites. I know its not right to have a favorite but I do lol.

Well maybe I'll write about how it goes tomorrow, I don't know I'm just not feeling blogging right now lol.....

Celebrities

So I was just watching Oprah a few minutes ago and I literally could not watch it anymore with out wanting to punch the television screen. She had Jane Fonda as a guest today and I've never gotten so angry at a person within a matter of minutes. Jane was sitting on Oprah's couch saying how much better her life is since she's turned 60 and that she finally feels whole in her body. I'm sitting there thinking to myself well I would probably have a lot of time to become whole with myself and love myself if I had millions of dollars and not have to worry about how I'm going to get through school or what I'm going to do with my life or even if I will be okay in the future. I would have plenty of time to find inner peace and be happy with my body if I got paid for memorizing some lines. I'm sorry for the rant but I'm so sick and tired of these celebrities going on talk shows saying how amazing they feel with their bodies and how comfortable in them selves they feel.

And since we're on the topic of body images, I grew up watching these women in movies and on tv. I mean these women are who I looked up to and who I wanted to be. These women that are now bitching and complaining about how girls and women today are too harsh on their bodies. These women are the reason that girls my age have the issues with their bodies that we do. I used to love watching Marilyn Monroe movies because she actually looked like me and men loved her. But the movies, rather the actresses in those movies, made me think that I had to be super skinny to be loved. Now these same women are complaining about the environment that they helped to create.

Again I appologize for the rant. I'm just so tired with these celebrities telling me how I'm supposed to behave. Like because I'm in my 20's I can't possibly know what happiness is because I'm not whole yet. I have a wonderful family who supports me every step of the way, a boyfriend who adores me and who I adore, and I'm at a job that I love and I'm about to start school for it. If that is not whole, if my life is not enough for me to be happy then I really don't know what else I'm missing...

I'm in a hurry to get things done...

I'm in such a big hurry to move time along. I'm almost over Halloween. I can't wait until October is over. So I have a costume that I wore last weekend to a work party and is it bad that I really don't want to wear it again. I just wanna get some cheap Halloween shirts and wear it with some jeans. I'm just over dressing up lol.

This fall break has went by way too fast. It feels like just yesterday it was the beginning of fall break. Now I have to go back to school tomorrow, and I'm not looking forward to it. I wish I could say that I did something awesome during this fall break but I didn't. I worked almost 40 hours at work last week and went to a Halloween party but that is about it. I'm so lame sometimes lol

Time goes so fast sometimes. When I found out fall break was this week I was so excited, I got to sleep in and hang out with friends and just relax a little bit.. but no I had to pick up extra hours at work lol. It was my choice to do it, I wanted to pick the hours up so that I can have a little bit of extra cash, but I've had the worse week at work. I wish I hadn't picked up the hours. I'm so drained right now and I cannot wait for Thanksgiving to get here lol

When will my OCD kick in??

I'm sitting here in my complete pig sty of a room. I have no desire to clean it. It makes me want to just throw everything out on my floor. I despise cleaning, we're like mortal enemies and I can't stand to even think about cleaning. I wish there was a way I could just wrinkle my nose or wave a hand and everything would be folded and put in the right place. When it comes to everything else I'm like a clean freak but my stupid room I can not stand to clean it.

When I was younger my dad used to threaten me when I didn't clean my room. He would threaten that everything would be thrown on the floor and he would come up to my room with a rake and just rake everything into a giant pile. He only did it to me one time but that was enough to last me through high school. I kept it pretty clean up until the point that work and school came into play. I have no energy to even think about cleaning. Blah....

Halloween

Oh my gosh, since when did it become acceptable to dress like a complete slut on Halloween. I'm looking for a costume, sort of scoping them out online before I go searching for one, and I'm seeing a trend in all of these costumes. Hemlines are seeming to become nonexistent with these costumes. I mean its not like Halloween is in the middle of July and you want to wear shorts, how sexy is it to wear a costume that is so skimpy you have to cover up with sweatshirts and jeans underneath of it. It is at the end of October, when its already starting to get cold and night time temps are in the 50's.

I'm going to a few Halloween parties this year and I do want to feel kinda sexy but seriously you can't go around in a skirt that doesn't even cover your butt, with a tank top on. Sorry about the rant but it is just irritating me.

Hug It, Chug It, FOOTBALL!!!

I went to the Bengals game today. I was really not impressed with what I saw. First let me just point out that I'm not a football fan what so ever. I've been around it all my life, both of my brothers played up until the time they were in high school. My dad is a huge football fan and every time him and my brothers get together that is all they talk about. But me I cannot understand the game, I've tried for years to understand the basic fundamentals of the game but it just doesn't click in my head.

So back to my story, I went to the Bengals game today and even though I do not understand football I tried to get into the game. I didn't have a good time today, I mean for starters the Bengals completely screwed up in the last freaking two minutes of the game. And second I didn't understand how they were screwing up, I mean I could tell they were obviously screwing up by the uproar of booing I heard from the crowd but I had no idea what was actually going on.

And on top of the stupid Bengals sucking, today was incredibly hot out. It was like 85 degrees outside. I mean call me crazy but I wanted it to be like the weather we've been having like 60-75 degrees outside, where I can curl into my hoodie and drink a little and be comfortable. The last time I went to a Bengals game it was hot like that and I almost passed out I was so over heated.

I really don't think I'll ever go to another Bengals game. Its not like I hate the Bengals or anything, I just am not a fan of football and I don't want to put myself through that freaking torture ever again, I don't understand the game I don't want to sit through another four hours of my life and I don't want to sit through and pretend like I'm having a good time and all I'm thinking about is going home and reading a book.

getting things together

I know that this blog was started as an assignment for my Strategic Concepts class but I really like the fact that I continue it. I really think that I'll continue this blog even after class ends in December. I like the fact that I can put what I'm feeling or how I am reacting out into the world.

I'll Have a Blue Christmas, without you....

So I was in the middle of another blogger's post when I got inspired to talk a little about my holiday traditions. In my family we only have a few traditions. The biggest holiday tradition we have is Thanksgiving. Usually the party is at my parents house, and it has been as far back as I can remember, and it normally lasts for 2 days. It starts of course on Thanksgiving and continues on to the day after. My aunts are huge Black Friday shoppers and will usually stay at our house until around 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. This is because our house is so close to the shopping centers that they can leave straight from our house and head to the malls lol. And we don't usually see them until around noon the next day. They all come in from shopping and eat the enormous amount of food we still have left and then pass out on our comfy couches until its time to leave lol... Black Friday is usually more of the party day for my family, we normally sit around the dining room playing euchre and drinking wine/beer what ever is around lol.

Then there is Christmas in my family.. For my immediate family we usually celebrate the night before Christmas. We have a huge meal in the dining room with the fancy china lol, and then afterwards we open up presents. It is my favorite holiday because of the family dinner. My family is on such crazy schedules these days that a family dinner at a reasonable time is almost always out of the question. This is year is going to be terrible, my younger brother has moved to Tennessee with his girlfriend and won't be able to make it home for Christmas this year because he is coming home for Thanksgiving.

As much as it saddens me to know that he won't be home for Christmas, he is coming home for 10 days in November for Thanksgiving. So I've came up with a little idea. Instead of him missing out on our Christmas Eve plans, we'll have a mock Christmas for him and his girlfriend when he comes home. I don't think its too unreasonable to ask that we move Christmas up for them at least. I was thinking about having presents for them and then a big dinner on the fancy china lol.

I do miss my little brother. He has been down there since March. We visited them this past July on our way to Florida. It was so nice to see him. I'm only three years older than him. Growing up we weren't that close, hell I wouldn't even say we were nice to each other lol. But in the past 3 years or so we've gotten really close. It sucked so bad when he moved. I've missed him so much, I mean I used to take for granted the stupid talks we'd have sitting in the living room, or the late nights hanging out or running around together. He was always my go to guy. When I didn't have anything to do, which was often since I'm broke, he was there. We would leave the house around midnight and drive around just bs-ing. It will be hard come Christmas when he's not around but I know that he's making a life for himself, which makes me feel incredibly proud of him.

Long time no post lol

Has anyone in this blogging universe seen the movie Empire Records? It is so amazing, like 90's teenage movie drama at its best! I'm not really sure what I could possibly write about because I'm too busy watching one of the best teenage movies of all time lol.

I have all kinds of different thoughts in my head about what to write about but something that is sticking out in my head by The Band Perry, its called "If I Die Young" I know it sounds a little morbid but its such an amazing song.. I love the chorus,
"If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a, bed of roses.
Sink me in the river, at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song."
Its an amazing song..

There are so many things going through my head right now but I really can't organize anything into a post lol. I'm going to bed lol

Questioning Everything...

I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing with my life. This is my second semester at Gateway in the Visual Communications field and I'm done. I don't like doing most of the things I'm doing. Don't get me wrong I think the photoshop class is fun and Strategic concepts is fun, but as I'm going through the motions of these classes and trying to learn some things I feel myself getting pulled into a different direction. I know that this blog is supposed to be advertising ourselves to the design community but I just don't think I'm cut out for this field.

If anyone is particularly curious I'm thinking about going into the field of Interdisciplinary Early Childhood Education. After I discovered this major I did one of those "V8 slaps" on my forehead. I don't know why I haven't been pursuing this career more. Why did it just now hit me that I should get into a career that deals with kids. I love kids. My job at Little Red has made me realize how much I actually love hanging out with children, talking to them, and teaching them.

Its like completely opposite professions, going from design to child care/education. But I'm excited to see how it will work out.

Designated Driver

So I've recently realized how much cheaper it is to go out to the bars when your the "dd". I've been the designated driver the last couple of times I've went out and I had more fun than if I was drunk. For instance, last night I went out and only spent $1. I've come to realize people are much more generous about buying you a cup of water when your driving them home lol. And on top of not having to buy my drinks I get to remember what gigantic idiots my friends look like when they're drinking and I get to be the one to tell everyone about it the next day lol

Recreational Reading...

So I've had a thought recently that I am completely obsessed with reading. I will set aside time during the day, at least an hour, to read my current book. Just today I finished reading the Sookie Stackhouse series. It was a 10 book long series and I started the whole series back at the beginning of August.. so basically I went through ten novels in about 8 weeks.. that is absolutely insane. I've never been an avid reader, back in high school it was like pulling teeth just to get me to read a book for a class! But now I don't know what I would do if I wasn't reading something. I don't always have my head buried in a book but I do like to set aside that time just to myself where I can curl up and go into another world that someone has created.

I know it is worn out a little but I'm completely into the vampire stuff that is out right now. I started off reading the Twilight Saga and I thought that was a really great set of books. However after I started reading some of the books that weren't meant for "tweens" I realize that Twilight was kind of childs play lol.

Since I finished the Sookie Series this afternoon I had to find something else to read.. so I looked up a few different series and decided on the Dark Series by Christine Feehan. It is a series of 21 novels and the 22nd will be released next year. Hopefully that will keep me busy until at least Christmas time. 

Is this wrong?

So I work at a daycare, which I've said many time in class.. but is it wrong for me to want to sit all these kids down in front of a tv playing disney and just let them watch that for an hour or two?  I work with the two year olds and our ratio is 10:1.. that is 10 two year olds to 1 teacher. I'm sorry but have you ever been in a 15x11 room with 10 two year olds?? If not let me just tell you how it goes on most days.. "Teacher Lisa my mommy is coming to pick me up" "Teacher Lisa I have a boo boo on my foot." Teacher Lisa I pooped" "Teacher Lisa I need to go potty" "Teacher Lisa she bit me" "Teacher Lisa can I play with your hair"..

As much as I've just complained about my job, I wouldn't want to spend my days any other way right now. Sure it can get a little hectic and crazy and sometimes you just want to look at them and say shut your mouths.. but at the end of the day I have fun with these kids. I'm sad when they move up out of my room. I love interacting with them and teaching them new things. Best thing about this job is that every day is different. Sometimes you could have a really mellow and chill day and the kids will play quietly and listen and no major injuries are endured. Other days your sending home six different notes because Little Johnny bit everyone in the class and then someone punched him in the nose. It can get really crazy sometimes but those are probably the best because it makes your job fun. My favorite part of the day is when I first get into the room to put my things down and the kids light up so much and just want to tell you everything they've been doing because they are so excited to see you. That is what I look forward to everyday.

Benny & Joon

I don't know if anyone else out there has heard of this absolutely AMAZING movie.. Benny & Joon. Its from Johnny Depp's earlier days and it is so awesome. Johnny Depp is a young man who is a little crazy and he falls in love with a girl who has a few mental issues. It sounds really weird now that I type it out here, but it is probably the best movie I've ever seen. I wish they made movies like this still, but sadly they don't.

Just dropping by again..

So my drawing class is coming around in a few minutes and I really don't want to go. I cannot stand doing these drawings anymore.. Last Wednesday we started drawing something new, it was a cabinet with a bunch of drawers. It took me forever to get done, literally almost the entire class period. So I'm almost done just fixing some minor details and my teacher walks up and says "Why does your cabinet look so narrow?" I almost started crying right there. It was some stupid little mistake that I was even told about before I started the project and I guess when I got into the drawing I completely overlooked that mistake. I guess I wasn't paying attention to what I was doing and just screwed everything up. Now I have to go back into this class and start all over because I can't stand looking at the one I messed up. It drives me insane to dwell on my mistakes, when it comes to my art at least.. If it doesn't turn out the exact way I want it to or how it is supposed to look, I freak out. I have to start all over because it just drives me crazy to look at where I messed up at..

Love to read lol

So it seems like its been forever since I wrote on this. I'll start off by talking about my labor day weekend. It wasn't as exciting as everyone else's I assume but I had a lovely time doing absolutely nothing for once. I went out one time over the weekend and that was enough for me lol. I've realized I'm not really a fan for going out.. give me an amazing book and a comfy place to relax and I'll be good for the next year ha ha. Pretty much all of my friends are in this party stage where you wanna do something every night and I'm just not feeling it. Maybe that makes me lame and I have no life but I really don't care. A cousin of mine once told me "you can't compare yourself to your friends or anyone else in your life. There is a purpose for you being the way you are and if they don't like it.... screw them lol" So I'm going to start living my life just like that. I can appreciate doing nothing for a while because I'm always doing something. 

Pretty good day, I guess lol

So it wasn't that bad today. My classes went by pretty quickly. I feel like I'm learning a little bit in my classes. I mean today I learned how to use a tool in Photoshop that I really had no idea how to use. And my perspective drawings were really easy, surprisingly. I thought that this drawing class was going to be the death of my but I actually got in to it today. I know I sound like a complete nerd but going to school for something as amazing as design is my kind of awesome lol. I transferred over from a big name university and I hated it. I felt like I was just a number and I couldn't talk to any of my teachers and it just was depressing all around. When I spoke to my counselor there for the last time she suggested seeing a therapist because I was "depressed". So I transferred to a smaller school and I'm absolutely fine. I love my classes and the teachers are personable and easy to talk to.

I love the fact that I can actually joke and have a good time with my teachers. I wish I wouldn't have wasted so much time with that university and just came here all along. I'm sure that has sounded like an advertisement for Gateway but I really don't care. I love where I'm at right now and I feel like my life is on the right track.

Boring Life of a College Student

So I have realized that my life is completely and utterly uneventful. Since school has started back, which has only been for two weeks, I literally have done nothing fun. All because of the stupid money situation and the fact that I have a lack of it. I would love to just be able to be like "Oh yeah you want to go out, let's do it," or even "Hey I'm starving let's go get something to eat." But instead I'm more like "Well I've scrounged up .65 cents so I'm going to go get some Ramen." My amazingly exciting day today consists of working on homework because I can't afford to go out with my friend for her 21st birthday...

I really can't wait until I've graduated from college and have a steady job and getting amazing paychecks. Okay, maybe not AMAZING paychecks at first but a steady paycheck would suit me just fine ha ha.

Through Child's Eyes

Right now I'm currently employed at a daycare. This is my part time job while I'm in school. I've always loved kids. Even when I was younger I used to take care of all the little ones at family functions. As I grew up this has never changed. I still keep and eye on the kids and play with them when I can.

I think the biggest reason I still love kids is that I'm actually a kid myself. I love running around for no reason, getting dirty, and I love trying new things. These attributes are what make me feel like a kid at heart. These feelings are what make me feel like I would be great at design. As a kid you're not afraid to be creative or do your own thing and be crazy, you just do it. As many kids and teens grow up they hold onto that fear and lose a lot of their creative side.

That is somewhat where my problems lie. I am drawn to bright colors and love to take chances. Sometimes this hinders me because I'm always looking for ways to interject bright colors when the client doesn't exactly feel like it is necessary. So my problem lies in the fact that I have no fear when it comes to putting colors, patterns, and shapes together. 

I've not lost this fear of creativity, no matter how many times someone has told me, "You can't put those colors together," or "Why did you take this out." I just look at those people and realize they are just afraid to take chances. They need to look at a project, whatever it may be, through a child's eyes.