Questioning Everything...

I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing with my life. This is my second semester at Gateway in the Visual Communications field and I'm done. I don't like doing most of the things I'm doing. Don't get me wrong I think the photoshop class is fun and Strategic concepts is fun, but as I'm going through the motions of these classes and trying to learn some things I feel myself getting pulled into a different direction. I know that this blog is supposed to be advertising ourselves to the design community but I just don't think I'm cut out for this field.

If anyone is particularly curious I'm thinking about going into the field of Interdisciplinary Early Childhood Education. After I discovered this major I did one of those "V8 slaps" on my forehead. I don't know why I haven't been pursuing this career more. Why did it just now hit me that I should get into a career that deals with kids. I love kids. My job at Little Red has made me realize how much I actually love hanging out with children, talking to them, and teaching them.

Its like completely opposite professions, going from design to child care/education. But I'm excited to see how it will work out.

Designated Driver

So I've recently realized how much cheaper it is to go out to the bars when your the "dd". I've been the designated driver the last couple of times I've went out and I had more fun than if I was drunk. For instance, last night I went out and only spent $1. I've come to realize people are much more generous about buying you a cup of water when your driving them home lol. And on top of not having to buy my drinks I get to remember what gigantic idiots my friends look like when they're drinking and I get to be the one to tell everyone about it the next day lol

Recreational Reading...

So I've had a thought recently that I am completely obsessed with reading. I will set aside time during the day, at least an hour, to read my current book. Just today I finished reading the Sookie Stackhouse series. It was a 10 book long series and I started the whole series back at the beginning of August.. so basically I went through ten novels in about 8 weeks.. that is absolutely insane. I've never been an avid reader, back in high school it was like pulling teeth just to get me to read a book for a class! But now I don't know what I would do if I wasn't reading something. I don't always have my head buried in a book but I do like to set aside that time just to myself where I can curl up and go into another world that someone has created.

I know it is worn out a little but I'm completely into the vampire stuff that is out right now. I started off reading the Twilight Saga and I thought that was a really great set of books. However after I started reading some of the books that weren't meant for "tweens" I realize that Twilight was kind of childs play lol.

Since I finished the Sookie Series this afternoon I had to find something else to read.. so I looked up a few different series and decided on the Dark Series by Christine Feehan. It is a series of 21 novels and the 22nd will be released next year. Hopefully that will keep me busy until at least Christmas time. 

Is this wrong?

So I work at a daycare, which I've said many time in class.. but is it wrong for me to want to sit all these kids down in front of a tv playing disney and just let them watch that for an hour or two?  I work with the two year olds and our ratio is 10:1.. that is 10 two year olds to 1 teacher. I'm sorry but have you ever been in a 15x11 room with 10 two year olds?? If not let me just tell you how it goes on most days.. "Teacher Lisa my mommy is coming to pick me up" "Teacher Lisa I have a boo boo on my foot." Teacher Lisa I pooped" "Teacher Lisa I need to go potty" "Teacher Lisa she bit me" "Teacher Lisa can I play with your hair"..

As much as I've just complained about my job, I wouldn't want to spend my days any other way right now. Sure it can get a little hectic and crazy and sometimes you just want to look at them and say shut your mouths.. but at the end of the day I have fun with these kids. I'm sad when they move up out of my room. I love interacting with them and teaching them new things. Best thing about this job is that every day is different. Sometimes you could have a really mellow and chill day and the kids will play quietly and listen and no major injuries are endured. Other days your sending home six different notes because Little Johnny bit everyone in the class and then someone punched him in the nose. It can get really crazy sometimes but those are probably the best because it makes your job fun. My favorite part of the day is when I first get into the room to put my things down and the kids light up so much and just want to tell you everything they've been doing because they are so excited to see you. That is what I look forward to everyday.

Benny & Joon

I don't know if anyone else out there has heard of this absolutely AMAZING movie.. Benny & Joon. Its from Johnny Depp's earlier days and it is so awesome. Johnny Depp is a young man who is a little crazy and he falls in love with a girl who has a few mental issues. It sounds really weird now that I type it out here, but it is probably the best movie I've ever seen. I wish they made movies like this still, but sadly they don't.

Just dropping by again..

So my drawing class is coming around in a few minutes and I really don't want to go. I cannot stand doing these drawings anymore.. Last Wednesday we started drawing something new, it was a cabinet with a bunch of drawers. It took me forever to get done, literally almost the entire class period. So I'm almost done just fixing some minor details and my teacher walks up and says "Why does your cabinet look so narrow?" I almost started crying right there. It was some stupid little mistake that I was even told about before I started the project and I guess when I got into the drawing I completely overlooked that mistake. I guess I wasn't paying attention to what I was doing and just screwed everything up. Now I have to go back into this class and start all over because I can't stand looking at the one I messed up. It drives me insane to dwell on my mistakes, when it comes to my art at least.. If it doesn't turn out the exact way I want it to or how it is supposed to look, I freak out. I have to start all over because it just drives me crazy to look at where I messed up at..

Love to read lol

So it seems like its been forever since I wrote on this. I'll start off by talking about my labor day weekend. It wasn't as exciting as everyone else's I assume but I had a lovely time doing absolutely nothing for once. I went out one time over the weekend and that was enough for me lol. I've realized I'm not really a fan for going out.. give me an amazing book and a comfy place to relax and I'll be good for the next year ha ha. Pretty much all of my friends are in this party stage where you wanna do something every night and I'm just not feeling it. Maybe that makes me lame and I have no life but I really don't care. A cousin of mine once told me "you can't compare yourself to your friends or anyone else in your life. There is a purpose for you being the way you are and if they don't like it.... screw them lol" So I'm going to start living my life just like that. I can appreciate doing nothing for a while because I'm always doing something.